Medications

I am going to start talking about my recovery which started at the State Hospital. While I was there I was finally started on Moban and Kemidrin after a trial of other medications which had different side effects like making my arms and hands shake. They all had different side effects and the doctor was tired of trying new ones. He told me that when I was out on the porch smoking that I did not shake. I asked him if he could try one more time. He looked in his books and came up with those two medications. I could not have that because I already had a dream of rebuilding my life and starting over. I could not type with my arms shaking. I could not go for a job interview like that. By going to the State Hospital it gave me a chance to put away my old life and start a new one. I did not like the fact that I had mental illness it was and is the worst thing that ever happened to me. They tried to make me switch from caffeinated coffee to decaffeinated coffee. I did not like it. After finally getting out of the State hospital one night after drinking coffee, and having by mind start racing, and almost having my mental illness come back I decided to quit. It was one of the hardest things to quit. I had already quit smoking with the help of Wellbutrin, and the side effects from that made me stop taking it after thirty days. Quitting coffee made by body go through withdrawals also. I could not believe that it had made such a difference to my body. I am now on Geodon. It is a lot better. I can do a lot more including getting up earlier in the morning. By all means though it is not a miracle drug, if I miss taking it four hours later I will wake up cold and my body feeling weird. I automatically look to see if I took my medicine. I would never quit it cold turkey.

Recovery

Recovery is like anything that you would like to achieve, you have to put your mind to wanting to recover. If you want to make a good life without mental distress, it is more than will power although will power does help. You have to put in the work to get better. One way to start is by identifying your triggers that bring on your mental distress. Like when I was drinking one of my triggers was Friday night when I was paid. I’d go out and drink. For mental distress it might be stress that brings on your symptoms. I use to write out my triggers on a piece of paper and carry them to remind me what they were. I found for myself that going to school and work helped me a lot to feel normal, and not always think of my mental distress. When my granddaughter was born and I started watching her on weekends, which took away a lot of loneliness. I could have just hung around the clubroom in the building I lived in. Although to care for someone else and feed them was a lot better. As for anything including recovery you have to find what works for you. I found by borrowing different parts of other peoples stories and incorporating them into mine it helped me. When you are finally recovered and feeling well it is great. There will always be down days and times. Just look for what is good about a situation, it cannot all be bad.

Thoughts Involving Recovery

Overcoming negative thoughts requires changes, not only mental or emotional, but physical ones also. Your life has to change to get rid of negative thinking, maybe where you live, friends, even bad habits. We must change what’s inside ourselves in order to become more of a positive person.If you’re feeling “blue” most of the time or you’re facing “bad scenes”, change may not come too quickly. Strength is what is necessary to understand your life and know what is wrong to create a change if you want your life to become better; it’s your thinking and what you’re feeling inside which make you a new person.Look honestly at your life and the things, the places and people that tend to bring you down and put them away from you. Challenge yourself because you choose to; and know that living a positive life is not living the demands of others not the will of others.If you don’t like something you don’t take it in hand; you don’t do anything; yet do try something else instead. It’s not the cowards’ way out, it’s just being smart; or idealistic, and it’s your faith in you turning away from the negative, reaching for perfection; striving for Recovery.